True Home

True Home

Some years ago my two sons, my husband and I celebrated a party with about fifteen other children. My husband Joerg didn’t feel well, but the children asked him to play basketball. He stood under the basket looking upward, when suddenly he fell down hard and hit his head on the ground with a loud noise. His whole body started shaking and he lost consciousness. Everyone, including me, thought he was dying. Inwardly I cried to Guru that I was not ready to live without my husband and asked for help. I meditated on Sri Chinmoy, holding my husband in my arms, and waited for a doctor. During my meditation, Sri Chinmoy's picture smiled at me. I received so much peace that I knew all would be well. It was after a very difficult time in my life. Night turned into day. Pain melted into a river of joy. A few weeks later unavoidable circumstances arose that were very trying, and when that period was over, I found it almost impossible to believe I had known so much joy and quite impossible to recover it. I was sitting on a grassy bank by a lake, trying to meditate, and found myself crying to Guru for the return of that marvellous joy. After a short interval I saw something small appear on the far bank of the lake. It grew steadily larger and larger and seemed to be moving rapidly toward me. It was Guru’s head, as it appears in one of his photos, semi-transparent, superimposed on the lovely landscape. It was the photo image that seemed real and the landscape almost imaginary. The image grew until it occupied the full scope of my vision, and then simply rushed into my heart. At that moment there came a burst of joy and peace. I felt, with immense gratitude, that I had regained my true home.

Mukti (Ottawa)

Ticket

Ticket

My family has gone through times when we had a full heart but quite empty purse. This was especially true when we first moved to Vienna. At that time, I could not afford to buy transportation passes for the subway and buses, and I was happy that in Vienna the passengers are supposed to stamp their own tickets. Only if the inspector comes do you have to show your tickets. But if the inspector finds you without a ticket, you have to pay a $35 fine. One day I was travelling on the subway without a ticket. I was sitting, meditating on a picture of Guru that I kept in a brown plastic cover, the kind people often use for ID cards or monthly transportation passes. I saw an inspector enter the subway car, and I got very nervous as he came closer and closer. Inwardly I was not only calling but yelling for Guru's help, all the time looking at his picture. The inspector passed the row of seats, looking at all the tickets and passes. When he came to my seat, he just looked at Guru's picture, nodded his head and moved on.

Lilly (Vienna)

Supreme

"Supreme"

In 1972, having just turned 18 years old, I became Guru's disciple. I moved from my family home to an apartment with my sister and another disciple. Guru had warned us that this was the "year of destruction", and that we should be especially careful and pray for special protection. With the thrill of my new life before me, I prepared for my first breakfast in my new home. Unexpectedly, as I screamed "Supreme", my knife slipped from my hand and landed point down straight into my bare foot. Saying Guru's name, I pulled the knife free. Not a drop of blood, a mark or a speck of pain remained. This was the first protection-miracle of many that my Guru would so compassionately offer to my life.

Pranika (New York)

Soft Whisper

Soft Whisper

Sri Chinmoy has helped me become aware of the presence of Someone who is always ready to step in to save us when we find ourselves in great danger. Like that day on the cliff… The cliffs bordered the island of Phuket, in the Indian Ocean, just off the southeast tip of Thailand. I was in a cab, driving to a hotel in the next cove, when the driver suddenly tripled our agreed price. I got furious, told him to stop the cab, and jumped out before the cab even stopped. I strode down to the beach, saying to myself, "I will not let a cab driver treat me like that! I heard there's a trail to that hotel. I'll walk!" So angry was I that I barely noticed that people were heading home from the beach, and that the sun was now low in the sky. Soon I spotted the trail leading up from the beach, and raced toward it eagerly. After all, I am a child of the coast and the ocean, and when I am near, I feel right at home. My childhood in Canada I spent running barefoot along the beaches of the Pacific Ocean, scrambling up the forest trail beside Robert's Creek to the waterfall, where the rock formed a giant pool, wide and deep. How I loved to plunge into the water, icy cold from the glacier, crystal clear. As I hiked along, my strides steady, I marvelled how my childhood training was helping me now. After 40 minutes, I rounded a final curve and saw, ahead of me, the luxury hotel, shining like a pearl, nestled in its own sheltered cove. I smiled, turned and looked out towards the sunset. Miles and miles of ocean. One sailboat anchored in the cove, its sail golden in the light of the setting sun. Something, then, made me turn back and stare at the path directly ahead of me. There, just two steps away—a gap in the rock—a crevice four feet wide—a split running the entire width of the cliff. Too wide to step over. Maybe I could jump, but… I stood very still and looked down. The cliffs knifed straight down into the ocean 30 feet below. Into the crevice the waves pounded, thundering against the sides of the cliffs. As I stood there, watching the waves, I saw my own death. I saw myself trying to jump the gap, slipping, falling, my cries drowned out by the waves. News I was missing. The long search into the night. Then, in the morning, the rescue team finding my body…I shuddered. I wasn't ready to die. Nor was I ready to burden my family and friends for the rest of their lives with my tragic, early departure. I looked down the cliff to my left, searching for a trail. Nothing. Sheer rock. I looked ahead. Too far to jump. Too risky. I looked back. Too far to walk back; too dangerous in the dark. I stood, then, very still, breathed deep—and prayed. Time stopped. The moment hung, clear and shining, like crystal: the hotel, gleaming in its sheltered cove; the lone sailboat with the golden sails, sitting perfectly still in the middle of the bay; the gaping crevice ahead of me; the waves churning 30 feet below; the sun setting, turning the sky pink and gold. No way forward, back or down. I was trapped. What I heard next has stayed with me to this day. I can still hear that whisper—quiet yet firm. It said, "Go up." Up! Of course! I looked up. The cliff above me was more sloping. There were indentations and places I could grab onto. And, best of all—20 feet up—I saw bushes, trees, earth! I got down on my hands and knees and started to crawl. To control my fear I found myself saying over and over, like a mantra, "The rock is my mother…" And I embraced the rock as a child embraces its mother's breast. Every time I slipped, I repeated, "The rock is my mother," and willed myself to think only of Mother Earth's fondness, her love for her children. Like that I inched my way up the cliff, finally getting near enough to grab a branch—it held—and pull myself up the last few steps. Thorns tore into my hand, trickles of blood ran down my arm. I didn't care. I was on solid ground. I was safe. Someone had saved me, with a miracle soft as a whisper.

Nilpushpi (New York)

Soft Landing

Soft Landing

In the summer of 1972, Sri Chinmoy's disciples used to see him at the Jamaica High School track. Entry to the track was through a hole in the fence, which was on a wall about three feet high. The disciples helped each other to get up the wall to get into the track. Going down was more difficult. Although friends held my hands to help me descend, I was concerned that, being no longer young, it would be hard landing because of the three-foot drop. Nevertheless, I needed to get down. I expected quite a jolt, but much to my surprise, I landed on what felt like air or pillows. There was no jolt at all! As I landed I happened to look at Guru sitting in a car. He was looking at me, and I instantly knew that he caused me to have a "soft" landing. I was grateful to Guru for his most caring and loving concern.

Mridula (New York)

Safe

Safe

My father is a diplomat in the German Government, and every three years my parents have to move to a different country. Once they told me that soon they were supposed to leave Czechoslovakia to go to the Sudan, where there was a war going on. My mother was terribly frightened, and I also was worried. I wrote to Sri Chinmoy telling him the situation, adding, "…and if it is not absolutely God's Will, please send them to another country." A few days later, there was an escalation of the bombing in the Sudan, and the German Government decided to reduce the number of personnel in its Embassy. There was no job left for my father. Instead he was sent to Moscow. Soon after that decision, the bombing in the Sudan subsided and they expanded the Embassy personnel again, but it was already too late to hire my father. When I told Guru, he said, "Moscow…hmm… safe, quite safe."

Prafulla (Zurich)

Profound Protection

I was on an ice-climbing adventure with a friend in the winter of 1999, when I feel that Sri Chinmoy saved my life - yet again. Unfortunately, the weather was a little too warm, so the condition of the ice was not so good.

The first day, which we spent on a small waterfall, I discovered that the ice was so rotten that few, if any, of my ice screws would hold a fall, but I managed to rappel (descend) to safety.

The next day, because the ice was so bad below, we decided to climb beside the waterfall to a higher area. The ice up top was also in poor condition, so we climbed to the side of the waterfall. At the end of the day, we prepared to rappel down to the bottom.

I gave quite a few lectures to my climbing partner on the importance of safe rappelling, including to always tie a knot in the ends of the rope, and I reminded him that most climbing fatalities are from rappelling. By the time we got to the last rappel station, it was dark, so we turned on our headlamps and began to set up the descent. We had two ropes that we had been tying together to get more distance, but on the last part, I thought that the single 70m rope would be fine. Looking down, I could see the rope coiled at the bottom of the climb, so I assumed all was well. Just at that moment, I thought, "Oops, I forgot to tie knots in the ends." I thought about the coils at the bottom and said, "Let's hope for the best." Then we began the descent.

I can say now that inwardly I knew that something was very wrong, but I foolishly ignored it. The thought of the rope ends repeatedly entered my mind, but I kept dismissing it. About three-quarters of the way down, I came off the ropes and fell. I had seen imaginary coils and was clearly wrong about the distance. The front points of my crampons caught on an ice shelf and turned me upside down, as I fell over 10m (30 feet). I hit the ground with my upper back and shoulders, feet in the air and my chin tucked to my chest. The momentum carried me backwards in a roll, and I felt my knees hit me in the face.

As I rolled, I knew from the distance and force of impact that I would be seriously injured, and I began to assess what would likely be broken. I figured that I would have a spinal injury, a broken rib or two and potentially some internal injuries. I rolled twice and stopped, standing on my feet. I did not have a single scratch or bruise, not even a bloody nose from my knees hitting me in the face. This was a real miracle.

My series of mistakes was potentially lethal, but I am alive to tell the tale of my embarrassingly poor judgement and of my Guru's profound protection.

Nirabadhi - Vancouver.